it's amazing what a change in venue does for the soul. i totally understand why people live by natural wonders like oceans and lakes, mountains and such--it's so refreshing! i spent a semester in LA, and loved going to Runyon Canyon, even though i'm a terrible hiker. It was such a gorgeous place to see, especially after it rained. i wish i had gone there more often.
since being home for Christmas, i've been able to actually think clearly. the whole "my life sucks" attitude has taken a vacay too, and i've once again found the hope i used to have for my life. the "take on the world" attitude dominates. i finally feel excited about the future again.
that feels nice. makes me smile. i never in my life thought i would have gone to the places i've been: Jamaica, college in Nashville, driving cross-country to spend a semester in LA, freakin' Grammy week, film festivals, concerts, music festivals, and now Chicago!? sometimes i can't believe it. i need to remember more often how blessed i've been. who would have thought a kid in foster care with all odds against her would have been so lucky? statistics say that based on my races and family history i should be working at some dead end job to support my three kids. statistics can shove it, i'm one in a million.
so now i'm just fighting the feelings of restlessness, lol. i'm so ready to get back and find a job that pays the rent while i work on my dream. i've decided on music lessons for now: piano, guitar, and voice. also, spanish. i've got so much i wanna learn, and plenty of time to do it. any suggestions of things to learn and do are most welcomed.
oh, and i've decided if i ever start a band, it will be Koopa Troopa. if i own a restaurant/venue, it will be Electric Avenue. we gonna rock down to Electric Avenue....
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